Prolifically Raw: Enough?

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Enough?

Am I doing enough?
Loving enough?
Healing enough?
Trying enough?
Working enough?
Exercising enough?
Helping enough?
Offering enough?
Happy enough?

As I approach the honorary day of giving, that collective conspiracy we call Christmas, I look at what I have wrapped with the intention of giving to others. There are the teachers, the friends, the partners and of course, the children. There are the needy and the charities and the community. I give but as I give, I worry�gosh�it is enough?

A teaching I once heard went like this: the mind is empty. That is why it can never be filled. I take this to mean that anxiety is what arises as a result of the natural state of the mind�emptiness. In response to this empty, natural state, the idea of being separate is born. And now we are here in this place called human existence, also known as cyclic existence, completely unaware of our misery. Zoom in closer and yes, that�s us racing from store to store, worried, full of anxiety and creating the same in our children. The rest of the year is no different, the racing around continues, as does the anxiety as does the passing of this legacy to the children. But the holidays are a kind a intensification that forces me to see more clearly.

In the seeing, I stop and hold silence which is the ultimate gift available to everyone. Finally, I find enough.